The Way I Am

So, for years now I've wrote chapters based loosely on the everyday events of my life. After much thought, I figured it was time to start posting some of it. Maybe y'all will get a little pleasure in reading about how crazy my life can be. I guess this is where I need to give a little background info on myself. In three days I will be turning the rifle age of 22. (I'm terrified!) I remember when I was 15 and started my "diary" and thought that I had life all put together! Wooh... Boy, was I wrong?! I'm almost 22 and I'm still learning everyday. I will never again be as náive as to think that my life is all put together... Because its far from it! Enough about age... I'm currently in radiological technologists school (shoot me now!) I will finally have a degree in May of 2013.. These four years of college have been the slowest, yet fastest time of my life! I know that makes no sense to some but surely someone feels my pain! I have learned so much these past 4 years... About school, life, love, fashion, creativity, and most importantly... who I am. A year ago I started the RT program. It was my escape.. After a year and a half of taking classes without a major(courses that varied from biology and chemistry to interior design and drawing...), my parents decided that maybe they should point me in a direction. To say I was confused was and is an understatement! Yes, I said IS! This goes along with the part from up top where I said my life is far from put together! I took my parents advice and applied for RT school because #1 I really wanted to move home! (I love my parents :-/ and being two and a half hours away was miserable!) #2 I figured "hey, there's a degree and it pays well." #3 I'm really indecisive and school just doesn't appeal to me! (I'd rather be creating!) So, here I am a year later and I almost have a degree.. Yay me! My parents are finally happy.. Me: not so much. I learned immediately that this program just wasn't for me! Im extremely too artsy to just push a button all day.. I probably just offended everyone that is already a tech because we do a lot more than that and it is really hard work, but that's how I feel when I'm in clinicals. I love drawing, painting, photography, basically anything that creates! I love using my imagination and lately, my imagination has been used on conjuring up ways of how I'd really love to drop kick basically every rude patient that comes through! (I swear I'm not violent; only recently have these thoughts popped into my head!) I can never see myself going to work in this field everyday.. It's just not me! What I'll do about it I'm not sure.. I guess that's the fun in life... I never know where God is going to lead me! So, now let's get to the fun stuff! I recently found the love of my life. He's an absolute blessing. I generally take his love and compassion for granted. He's beautiful. I knew from the moment I saw him that he was the man of my dreams... Cheesy right? But seriously, after a long hard road to finding love... I finally found the man that the Lord has made for me! I'm sure you,ll hear more about him later! I mentioned earlier that art is my passion! I'm sure you're wondering why I did not choose to major in it.. Well, I tried it. The constant deadlines were too much for me.. I'm a perfectionist and perfection takes time :-P I couldn't stand the "all nighters" to finish my work. I grew to hate it... It's only recent that I've gotten inspired again.. So, there's your answer! I'll post my artwork from time to time... Now, about my family... My family consists of a wonderful mom and dad who have been married for 30 years! My mom was 18 when she met my dad who was 25 at the time! It was love at first sight and they were married a year later! They had my older sister 4 years later.. And then 3 1/2 years after that they had another baby girl and named her Alexandra Jordan! When I was about 9 we had another addition (thanks to me) and that was a Boston terrier named pug! He has become my little brother and the son my dad never had! My family is anything but normal, but I thanks God for them everyday.. I'm sure there's a lot more that you want to know about me, but I hope I will answer those questions through each post. “This life is what you make it. No matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up because if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about.” ― Marilyn Monroe